Grey

So coincidence that both of us were wearing grey outfit today. But my mood was just like the color, grey grey de. Tomorrow will be the last two days of the one month period. Hopefully i could just let it be thou I know I couldnt at the moment. Should I just give myself some confidence and just do it. So that I wont feel regretted afterall?

Moody night

Had serious Monday blue in the morning. Life goes on and work goes on. As usual, I stayed back after client and continue working in the office. Reached office and found a random seat. He was sitting right in front of me, few rows away but we could see each other clearly. I really made myself to focus on work, try not to look at him all the time, but I couldn't. Sob sob.

Sent my junior to his car and back to work. Li called and started to chat about her working and her discussion with Director. Feel better that I found someone to at least talk to while working. Stop chatting and I continued to work till 1.30am. He was still there working, how I wish I could go and say goodbye and take care to him but I didn't. I have no confidence to do so. 

Movie night

It was a random one after work. Since both my senior and I are free and most importantly it is Friday night! Initially, we wanted to watch 'Need for speed'. But end up watching '300'. The movie was so violent. Full of blooding scene. I was covering my face most of the time. but the movie wasnt that bad except for the slow-motion-violent-blooding scene. At least I didnt fall asleep during the movie. Haha. Okay, thats for my Friday night.

13/03/2014

Now listening: 楊宗緯 - 那個男人

Today's weather was terrible and very hazy. Able to wake up on time for work, traffic was not so bad too, and reached office earlier as compared to yesterday. Bought bread and milk as breakfast and started working. 

That's was my morning today. Nothing much. 

The 20th day

It has been 20 days since our last chat. I feel sad because I am always the one taking the first step. I always hope to be your friends, just a normal friend. Not like now, whenever we talk, it will eventually link to work related stuff. How badly I hope we could talk more friendly and casually about our life, our family or our interest. But you seem like treating me just like colleague, not even friend.

Everyday I saw your car parking at B1 or near office, I will feel motivated to work. 'Am I really like you or you are the motivation for me just to continue working in audit?' I always question myself. 

Okay, I will give myself 10 more days, try to let go as much as possible. Goodbye, in 10-day time. 

June

Back to my blog - Mixed feelings

Now playing: Let her go - Passenger 

Today is International Women's Day. Happy International Women's Day to everyone! As usual, we got some goodies from KPMG. Last year, it was a energy drink with sticky candy. This year, we got a purple scarf and milk powder. :)

It was my tooth extraction day as well, to prepare for orthodontic treatment. My senior even wished me 'Happy tooth plucking day!'. Although it seems to be hurt a bit, but I think it worth as I will have my nice teeth after all!

However, it was kinda sad to know about the MAS MH370 incident. The airplane could have been crashed since it lost its contact at 2.40am. However, I still hope for the good one. Be optimistic. Because I know that it would be very heart breaking for the passengers' families if the crash did happened and the feeling is not good, definitely. 

Kept thinking about my work today, but I seem to kept myself away from that. Instead of working from home, I took nap twice today. Maybe I was too tired or I was just ignoring it? Sometime, I would feel no pressure and chill. Sometimes, I would feel the self-pressure working within me. I am confused. I wish I could just sleep and everything will be over eventually. 

Sigh, this is my first post back to blogspot after being abandoned for 4 years. Should have written something positive. 

To do list

Song playing: Arashi - movin' on

To do list:

1. Study FR
2. Complete KPMG Assignment ONTIME
3. Go shopping
4. Buy a new phone
5. Exercise everyday
6. Clean up my wardrobe and bedroom
7. Have my hair cut
8. Do cross-stitch
9. Learn to use a DSLR camera(to teach my aunt)
10. Learn cooking (my fav - tomato with egg)

-June-

Holiday mood

Song playing: Arashi - Monster

Assignment to be done and deadline is just around the corner but yet I procrastinate it. Write half-way then stop and continue tomorrow. Don't even know when it will be done.

Don't feel like hanging out with friends. Wanna just stay at home and enjoy my holiday life.

Everywhere is having Mega sales and I didn't even go out for shopping. I wanna go shopping!

Enjoyed eating last few days. Dim sum, spagetti, vietnamese food, thai food, japanese food. Today only I realised that I've tried 5 countries' food in a week time! Gotta exercise hard everyday.

Listening to Arashi's song repeatedly. The new album was being repeated for not less than 5 times. However, I love listening to 'Time' album during study leave. It has become a practise that this album that must be listened to when I'm doing my revision.

That's all. Good Night!

-June-

'Happy 2nd Year Anniversary!!' This was supposed to be posted on April Fool because that day was '2nd year anniversary' for this blog, but now only I realized. Never mind la~

Sometime I wonder I write the blog for what reason. To let people know what I was doing recently? Maybe. But I also wonder anybody reading my blog except those who leave comment. Or I just delete this blog?

Let's me talk about my life recently. These few days, I was playing the FB games and reading other's blog then doing nothing. Then, my house was added with a new computer recently as the old computer so 'cheap blak' and outdated. But I was restricted to download any stuffs using that computer as I always make the hard disk full.

Luckily I've got 2 computer in my house. Another computer's hard disk is going to become my 'target' to stuck my downloaded stuffs. =)

-June-

my blog is half dead...
no mood to write...
just let you all know that I'm fine recently...
learning to drive these few days...
had muscle pain after driving for 2 hours last Wednesday... T.T
celebrate my friend's 21st birthday this Sunday...
outgoing with friends next Thursday...
looking forward for those outgoing~
miss my friends~