顺其自然

记得四月的时候求了个签
签解的是让事情顺其自然、让上天去决定。
这几个月来我都让一切顺其自然

可是事情就真的顺其自然吗？
我还不知道
就等时间久了
自然而然就会揭晓了，对吧？

六月的总结

来写个六月的总结吧
今年的六月真的是精彩
去了几个地方
也发生了让人印象深刻的事情
又开心的也有不愉快的
先说说不愉快的吧
认识了很久的朋友
最近才更了解他
原来我们的友情只是浅
没关系吧
反正我也没有在在意
再说说一些好的事情吧
今年的生日
好友让我过了无忧无虑的一天
不必驾车不必担心任何事情
只是尽情的享受没压力的一天
而且当然也收到了大家的生日祝福
我知道我很挑、要求很高
但是你们也迁就了我
真开心有你们
听我说心事、发牢骚
有时候火气大还会发脾气
我会尽量把坏脾气改掉

这个月内我们出游了两次
两次都是不一样的感觉
马六甲我吃了好吃的榴莲泡芙、satay
我们也一起喝酒聊天畅谈
虽然是塞车了几个小时
不过还好不是我驾车*哈*

出游Langkawi也是很好玩
第一次喝得那么醉
第一次驾车载那么多人*说实在是有点怕怕*
第一次玩骑马打仗
虽然也发生了一些不愉快的事
不过只要把愉快的事记起来就好了
不愉快的就忘了吧
所以，下一次我们是时候冲出国外了

害怕

我本来以为六月是一个很让我期待的月份
可是却发生了很多事情
感觉就在坐过山车似的
让我喘不过气
尤其是工作上的
工作上我必须要接手之前留下来的
才发现原来一点也不容易
让我真正地体验到皇帝不急太监急这句话
上司总是很忙，工作交上去了要几天到几个星期才有回复
就会有一段时间是很空闲
是会享受那段时间
只是宁静是暴风雨的前夕
每一次空闲了一段时间都会突然一堆工作要赶着做完
那似打仗的过程真的很让人喘不过气来
我时常在想是不是我的能力不足？
所以才做不来
我知道每一次我都会无形中给自己压力
觉得自己做得不够好会有污点瑕疵
朋友之间也是发生了一些让我心情起伏很大的事情
是我的忍耐力、妥协能力变差了
还是我变回了以前的我
脾气暴躁、控制不了自己情绪的我
我该怎么办
我害怕会回到以前情绪不好的我

Birthday wishes

As per requested by one of my friend *ahem, don't wanna disclose her name*, I would like to write about my birthday wishes. XD My birthday and my favourite month of the year is just around the corner, I really can't wait for it to come! Okay, let's talk about my birthday wishes. All I want are actually warm birthday wishes from my friends, families, colleagues and hopefully 'him' too. Someone please hint him on my birthday please, just kidding. Erm, maybe I would like to have a birthday cake too. No need to be a huge and fancy cake, a small one will do. Maybe one slice also can la, I really don't care. But if possible, a complete cake la. Sound too demanding huh? For myself, I would get myself a present but I am still thinking and considering what to get. A Parker pen, a pair of new shoe, a nice necklace, a new watch, a new sewing machine or a mini ironing pad? I couldn't make up my mind. Sigh, too many choices and I can only buy one. How good if I am a millionaire. Haha. Dream on and goodnight.

Lucky day

I think I have utilised most of my luck for this month. No more lucky day for this month. I got my stuff done as I wish to. My accounts finally got reviewed by the partner after so long, like about one week. And then, I got to talk to him today! At first, I talked to him through office communicator to ask for guidance. He did help me by giving me reference. Then, we did talked in person while both of us were in the pantry. He was the one who started the conversation. Yes, I was not dreaming. Good one right? Tell me yes please. Haha. Yea, that's all for today as well. Continue to be happy until June. Hopefully. I want an interesting and happening June please. *Pray hard*

Emotional day

One day of last week, I got a complaint email from my client, whom I never met before as I liaised with him only through email. I felt I was at the lowest part of the world and feel like hiding my self from everyone. I did sent an email for apologies which I wouldn't know whether he accepted or not. And, I didn't know whether that was a right decision to send him apologize email. The day after that so-called-incident, I felt like my Director knew it. I am not sure whether I worried about it and thought too much. But I felt 'something', not sure. That day was my first day which I slept so early throughout 2014, I would said. I can't face it and I rather sleep and not think about it. This is me, always avoiding things or problem that I wouldn't want to do or solve. My bad attitude. Okay, that's all for last week. It's over now.

No title

I always feel so grateful as my life was being so smooth. I have never failed in any of my exam since I was young. Is this because of my hardwork or my luck? I am always a good students and never let my parents, my family and my aunt disappointed during school time. And yes, I did my best and passed my ACCA as desired. After graduation, I managed to work in Big 4 firm. My achievement in my education, my career are satisfied. But, when it comes to relationship, the luck is no longer with me, I think. Someone give me the luck please. Or I should just let it be.

Last day

And yes, today is a brand new day. Spent the night with my bff. Feel so blessed we can talk a lot even though we have not seen each other for months. We laughed and we teased each other. Was enjoyed the time with my bff and able to forget about him for a while. :) Before i forgot, i have passed my JLPT N5. Finally, i got my result after 2 months. Have been waiting for it since January. Haha. Applied half day leave for the dental appointment. Dr Aaron put the rubbers in between the teeth to expand the space. Feel a bit numb and nothing much although he told me that it will hurt a bit. Went to kino after that. Read a book about relationship and i found it quite interesting. Hmmm. Went to shop too and i bought a top and a skirt. Gonna stop it before i become shopaholic. =.="

Countdown

Now playing: Westlife - Swear it again 

Tomorrow will mark the last day of the one month period. I gonna delete all whatsapp conversation with him *although it is only a few message*, and reset my mind. 

I swear it again, I will let go this stupid-and-no-return-thought. I tried myself not to think about him anymore. But I dreamt of him again last night. Sob sob. He was sitting not far from my seat and I could hear him talking from the back. I put on the earphone and increase the volume so that I could hardly hear what he was talking. 

I can do it!

Grey

So coincidence that both of us were wearing grey outfit today. But my mood was just like the color, grey grey de. Tomorrow will be the last two days of the one month period. Hopefully i could just let it be thou I know I couldnt at the moment. Should I just give myself some confidence and just do it. So that I wont feel regretted afterall?