π 3.1415

It was an ordinary Saturday that I have my monthly dental appointment before heading to office for work. Was supposed to meet with someone but I think he most probably has forgotten about it. Since he said wanna date me but he didn't mention about it in our next conversation. Felt kinda sad when I was working in office, waiting for his message or text. As usual, i went for lunch with colleagues. When i got back to office, someone texted me. Haha, it was him. 

He started with some usual conversation. Then he asked me if I've got any dinner plan for the night. Luckily he still remember it. Was a bit bit happy when I received that message. But, wait, my braces have just been tighten! I hardly eat any foods. Sigh. But luckily he chose a Japanese Ramen restaurant. I got to eat soft food, or else I gonna reject his invitation. 

I rushed home after work and rushed to the restaurant @ Publika Mont Kiara. He has not been to Publika, so he suggested there. Reached earlier so I hang around at the art shops. 

We met at the entrance of the restaurant, and got a table, then sat opposite each other. Kinda awkward when we sat down and looked at each other. So I started the conversation, but don't ask me how i started it, I can't remember what did I say. We was eating and chit-chatting until he asked for bill. Of course, he paid for the bill. Haha. Then, he suggested to go for coffee shop or cafe for second round. We went to Coffee Societe for drinks and chat until 9 ish. He paid for the dinner so I treat him the drinks in return. That's all for the night until we say goodbye to each other. 

When I reach home then only I realised it was π Day and so coincident, it was also W Valentine Day.

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I was looking for new job today
don't know why, I just feel like getting a new job which has more work-life balance
everyday work work work, like never ending
took a break on Monday
but still the same when i get back to work

I feel myself procrastinating my work
I hate avoiding things
but i am doing it right now

deadline is there, trying to be met
but other people are not helpful
client has been taking their sweet times
juniors as well, kinda headache

recalling the time when I first joined KPMG
so enthusiastic and full of energy
and now, I look like a dead fish
struggling and trying to get into water

okay, just to vent about my current job
time to get a new job
good luck to myself!

認識了一個人

最近認識了一個人
也不是最近
有幾個月了
還蠻談得來的人
我們有幾個共同點
都是左撇子
都是哈日的飯
都有在學日文
都是單身

只是我有點害怕
害怕自己喜歡了一個不喜歡我的人
*也不知道這算不算喜歡，就是愛和他聊天的感覺*
不喜歡別人要理不理的感覺
有時很多話但有時卻很靜
讓人捉不着頭腦
到底他在想些什麼
天蝎座就是那麼的神秘嗎？

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#Gemini hate it when the person they like doesn't show sign back.

Confession 表白

不知道哪兒來的勇氣
竟然新年的第一天表白
可能是酒精的關係
加上大家的慫恿 哈哈

就在新年的第一個小時
我發了新年祝賀給他
再加上一個不短不長的信息

其實在發了信息後
我突然感覺：'我終於說了'
憋著的感覺真的很辛苦
頓時感覺很鬆了一口氣

酒醒後我看了看我發的信息
其實有一點點兒的後悔
心裡想：'明天要怎麼面對他、看到他會不會尷尬呢？'
然後，自己不斷的查看到底他看了信息沒

可是，到了第二天他還是沒有看過信息的感覺
我心裡想：'該不是看了就真的不回我了'
自己心裡酸酸的
其實是期待著他的回覆

結果那天晚上
'叮'的一聲
我看了看，一察覺是他回的信息
頓時全身熱了起來
把手機丟到一旁
瞄一瞄他到底回了什麼
可是看了前面一句就看不下去了

等到自己冷靜下來，看了看
原來他的手機壞了剛修好
所以那麼遲才回覆我
他的回覆給我覺得很紳士的感覺
深怕傷害到我
其實也就表示他拒絕了我

沒什麼，至少我把憋了那麼久的感覺表達了
人生沒遺憾了 哈哈
兩年的感覺也該放下了

好吧， 就把機會留給更適合的人吧

低潮期

每每到了一個時期就會感覺很低落
我自己所謂的低潮期
什麼事情都提不起勁
上班的時候也很懶散
只想每天上班後趕快回家
不想和別人溝通
不想要想太多
只想待在自己的安樂窩
回家很家人一起聊天、一起看電視
累了就睡覺
過了一天就是一天
每一天都期待著週末的來臨

可能是最近發生太多事情了
同事們走的也走了
還有幾個要到別的地方工作
我知道，天下沒有不散的筵席
這樣的離別可讓我覺得突然很孤單

每一天就好像鹹魚一樣
懶洋洋提不起勁
啊～～～
我的動力你在哪兒？
繼續當鹹魚去～飄

裂痕

冷静了下来
想了想
是我错了吗
是我气上头说错了话
还是我自己把事情放大了
为什么让别人的事情搞得我们的感情有裂痕
为什么让别人的事情影响了我们

大家都知道
隐瞒
可以是好的决定
也可以是坏的

我曾经因为隐瞒
结果造成和家人的关系不好
也用了很久的时间
才慢慢的和家人重新建立感情
但是始终大家之间还是会有那个裂痕
事情发生了就是发生了

这是我的弱点
所以任何事情
从一开始
要就坦诚的相对
不然只会自己在纠结、辛苦
到最后，结果也不是大家想要的

我知道我不太会表达
也许我的情绪突然被点到、被影响了
才会那么情绪化
所以让你们误会了

可是我承认
我的确在意
因为我以为这些都是约定
说到就得做到
要不然为什么当初要作这所谓的约定

以上。

过去的事就让它过去吧
我们也是这样从过去中学习成长的

Thoughts

I used to think a lot while I am driving
No matter I am driving home or driving to work
I will just off the radio and start thinking
Think about future
Think about career
Think about family
Think about relationship
Sometimes my thought will lead me to be emotional
There were few times I was crying alone in the car
But I find it relieved afterall
Maybe this is one of my way to release stress

Dear my friends, sorry for not telling you my issues
It was always not the right timing to tell
I will be very emotional if I were to tell
When the right timing is here, I will definitely share with you.

It's not the time to relax

JUNE LIM, this is not the time for you to relax
You should adjust your mood for the challenge
You are the one accepted it
You have to do it no matter how
One more peak
It will be over
Afterall you will be free
You may choose the path that you have desired

So now
Lets just do it
Nothing is impossible
If you think you can, you CAN!
Get prepared and try you best
Don't disappoint anyone who gave you the chance
Hold the opportunity and be impressed!

是时候放弃了吗？

每每我想放弃的时候
就会发生很多和他巧遇的事

就好像星期三
在上班的路上驾着驾着
突然发现原来前面的就是他的车

到了星期五
把车停好的
走去公司的途中
又看到他就在我前面
经过便利店
他走了进去
我也跟着进去
买了早餐就去等电梯
眼看他还在后头排队付钱
我等到电梯了
进了电梯
没想到随后跟来的是他
他就这样站在我前面一直到七楼
当时感觉那段上七楼的电梯特别慢
在电梯里
我悄悄地拿起了电话拍了他的背影
他就离我那么近
可是我却感觉我们彼此之间的距离很远

到了晚上
我准备离开公司
正要出公司门
看到他从门外要进来
我们互相都看到了对方
可是我没和他说再见
他也没说一句话
我们就这样互看笑一笑插肩而过
我顿时觉得心里很酸
本来就没什么交流的两人
现在变得更加陌生了

我知道了，是时候该放弃了。

其实也没什么的
自从中秋节那天过后
我们再也没互发信息了
就这样让他淡去吧