Last day

And yes, today is a brand new day. Spent the night with my bff. Feel so blessed we can talk a lot even though we have not seen each other for months. We laughed and we teased each other. Was enjoyed the time with my bff and able to forget about him for a while. :) Before i forgot, i have passed my JLPT N5. Finally, i got my result after 2 months. Have been waiting for it since January. Haha. Applied half day leave for the dental appointment. Dr Aaron put the rubbers in between the teeth to expand the space. Feel a bit numb and nothing much although he told me that it will hurt a bit. Went to kino after that. Read a book about relationship and i found it quite interesting. Hmmm. Went to shop too and i bought a top and a skirt. Gonna stop it before i become shopaholic. =.="

Countdown

Now playing: Westlife - Swear it again 

Tomorrow will mark the last day of the one month period. I gonna delete all whatsapp conversation with him *although it is only a few message*, and reset my mind. 

I swear it again, I will let go this stupid-and-no-return-thought. I tried myself not to think about him anymore. But I dreamt of him again last night. Sob sob. He was sitting not far from my seat and I could hear him talking from the back. I put on the earphone and increase the volume so that I could hardly hear what he was talking. 

I can do it!

Grey

So coincidence that both of us were wearing grey outfit today. But my mood was just like the color, grey grey de. Tomorrow will be the last two days of the one month period. Hopefully i could just let it be thou I know I couldnt at the moment. Should I just give myself some confidence and just do it. So that I wont feel regretted afterall?

Moody night

Had serious Monday blue in the morning. Life goes on and work goes on. As usual, I stayed back after client and continue working in the office. Reached office and found a random seat. He was sitting right in front of me, few rows away but we could see each other clearly. I really made myself to focus on work, try not to look at him all the time, but I couldn't. Sob sob.

Sent my junior to his car and back to work. Li called and started to chat about her working and her discussion with Director. Feel better that I found someone to at least talk to while working. Stop chatting and I continued to work till 1.30am. He was still there working, how I wish I could go and say goodbye and take care to him but I didn't. I have no confidence to do so. 

Movie night

It was a random one after work. Since both my senior and I are free and most importantly it is Friday night! Initially, we wanted to watch 'Need for speed'. But end up watching '300'. The movie was so violent. Full of blooding scene. I was covering my face most of the time. but the movie wasnt that bad except for the slow-motion-violent-blooding scene. At least I didnt fall asleep during the movie. Haha. Okay, thats for my Friday night.

13/03/2014

Now listening: 楊宗緯 - 那個男人

Today's weather was terrible and very hazy. Able to wake up on time for work, traffic was not so bad too, and reached office earlier as compared to yesterday. Bought bread and milk as breakfast and started working. 

That's was my morning today. Nothing much. 

The 20th day

It has been 20 days since our last chat. I feel sad because I am always the one taking the first step. I always hope to be your friends, just a normal friend. Not like now, whenever we talk, it will eventually link to work related stuff. How badly I hope we could talk more friendly and casually about our life, our family or our interest. But you seem like treating me just like colleague, not even friend.

Everyday I saw your car parking at B1 or near office, I will feel motivated to work. 'Am I really like you or you are the motivation for me just to continue working in audit?' I always question myself. 

Okay, I will give myself 10 more days, try to let go as much as possible. Goodbye, in 10-day time. 

June

Back to my blog - Mixed feelings

Now playing: Let her go - Passenger 

Today is International Women's Day. Happy International Women's Day to everyone! As usual, we got some goodies from KPMG. Last year, it was a energy drink with sticky candy. This year, we got a purple scarf and milk powder. :)

It was my tooth extraction day as well, to prepare for orthodontic treatment. My senior even wished me 'Happy tooth plucking day!'. Although it seems to be hurt a bit, but I think it worth as I will have my nice teeth after all!

However, it was kinda sad to know about the MAS MH370 incident. The airplane could have been crashed since it lost its contact at 2.40am. However, I still hope for the good one. Be optimistic. Because I know that it would be very heart breaking for the passengers' families if the crash did happened and the feeling is not good, definitely. 

Kept thinking about my work today, but I seem to kept myself away from that. Instead of working from home, I took nap twice today. Maybe I was too tired or I was just ignoring it? Sometime, I would feel no pressure and chill. Sometimes, I would feel the self-pressure working within me. I am confused. I wish I could just sleep and everything will be over eventually. 

Sigh, this is my first post back to blogspot after being abandoned for 4 years. Should have written something positive.